There are very few things that sting like losing a partner. Someone you can confide in and believe has your best interests at heart. That level of betrayal brings the worst out in people and it has in yours truly. All I have to say is this....look at the picture above..nuff said!!!
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I'm Shane. I was the Partner. I love Jason. I'm unlucky in that I'm battling secondary-progressive Multiple Sclerosis. It should go into remission. I was disowned by my family late last year. The day they disowned me, they tricked me into returning from NYC on trip with Jason. They'd told me my father had a heart attack, again, and he may be gone when I arrive. It was a torture ride. When I got there, he was fine. My parents, brother, and sister-in-law tricked me...they wanted me to give up my home (in their name) and go away because I was clearly not afraid to hurt the family name by being gay, but I was now going to be with a black man after 10 years with a white one...who's committed to a new partner!
So I snapped. I developed a borderline personality disorder for a few weeks and believed my father was dead. They were all not speaking to me and I was done with them forever, so I "ended them." To Jason and other's it would seem I lied. I have temporary cognitive impairment from the MS, I was going to lose my home, and then I was tricked and disowned. I didn't lie with the intent of deceiving Jason for my gain. I told him something that was final.
Though I have spotty memories of those 3 weeks...I remember that Jason was, and always is supportive. I love him more than I ever loved my family members. He knows me, is honest with me, and gives me space to be the complicated person I am.
I can also be good, kind, loving and thoughtful. I care about Jason as much as myself. If there is any sense to this existence...we will finish this ride together.
Jason...thank you for your forgiveness and support while I get treatment. You're my Angel!
Love Always,
ME
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